Hello all. Beautiful day, isn't it? uh huh *sighh* lol. Just finished washing my hair and all that, and I gave myself a facial, I love those lmao. It's Christmas Day tomorrow, I wish Trevor was here..BUT oh well, then again, my uncle would probably be bothering him and then scare him off. My uncle can be really protective, he's a cop, so he thinks he's mister BADASS. Yeah, he'd probably be like ''Trevor, what school do you go to? how old are you? where do you see yourself in 5 years? and are you employed?" haha. It's enough every family get-together, they ask me if I have a boyfriend, and I don't really want THEM to know yet, I mean then the whole night they'll be questioning me about him. I'll wait for a better time, lol.

Lastnight, I got a really really mean email, from Ryan. It appears he has become friends with Daniel. Well, today Kelly went to see them and practically scared them off, lol. They were scared of KELLY here..my gosh. But yeah...I was really upset about that email, why would Ryan just turn on me like that? it's weird, but I did agree with the stuff he mentioned to say. It's really upsetting, but I don't really want a lot of people to know how upset I really am about it. I mean I know you should'nt listen to what people say about you, but I do. I dunno..things just kind of stick in my head. Oh well..

Anyways, Trevors not online right now, I really miss him. I miss his voice, gah I won't be able to call him for awhile unless my moms bitchy-side of the family actually gives me money. They don't feel like going out and getting ME anything. No..pfft. Gah I wish Trevor was here, so he could make everything in my life [in winnipeg] that sucks, disappear. He could make people from my old school disappear, he could make Ryan and Daniel disappear..everything, with just being with me. But no..in my neighborhood, I feel like I'm surrounded. Honestly, all the people at my old school live around me, I hate it. I HATE IT. If they found out I had a boyfriend, they'd probably try and talk with him and change his mind, like they always do. OR if they saw me with him, they'd say crap to me. Can't these people get a life? of course not. If I could wish for ONE thing, it would be for Trevor to come to Winnipeg. It would make me sooo happy, and I wouldn't feel so alone! Ah I'll be patient I guess, absence makes the heart grow fonder. <3

I'm off. Happy Holidayys.

Love yeah. <3